I was watching your Sunday Soul and you were talking with a woman, I've never heard about her, who lost her husband from a heart attack and apparently she wrote a book about her experience.
Well, I lost my husband from a heart attack 21 years ago I can't say for sure if I will ever recover from that experience.
I was 38 years old. He was my best friend. He was the love of my life.
My son was 9 and my daughter was 7 and God, it was so so hard to raise them alone.
Now, as I've already told you, my children live in North America. My son in Canada and my daughter in the USA.
My daughter is pregnant and it's something wonderful and terrifying at the same time because I can't move to the USA and how am I suppose to live far from my grandchild?
I cant live in the USA with $1,500/month. How am I going to pay for Health Insurance?
What kind of job can I get being 60 years old?
My job as a translator allows me to have a good life here in Brazil where I don't pay rent because my mom left me this appartment (or half of it as my brother is entitled to the other half) and considering that I don't spend much I can live a well.
But if I move to the USA I'll need to earn more.
I don't want to live with my daughter. My son-in-law is an angel but it would be too hard for him and also I've been completely alone for 2 years now and I do love living my life by myself.
I love the freedom to go to bed anytime I want and waking up late or early.
I love being able to eat when I want, to go out without having to explain where I'm going or when I'm coming back.
So I think I'll have to live far from my grandchild and spend all my money on airplane tickets.
And I thank God for my health, for being able to work a lot to buy those tickets.
Anyway, I'm sure that God will find a way to always help me.
I used to be so anxious but now I've learned to put my life in God's hands and trust.
Love you Oprah.
Gisela
