Dear Oprah

I know I abandoned my blog.
I went to the USA and after that to Canada to visit my son.
It was good visiting them but I was also so weird.
My son erected a wall around him and it is as only his wife can get into his heart.
I feel really sorry for him but there's nothing I can do.
And then I came back home and I had a huge problem with one of the agencies I work for and, well, things are a little difficult on the money side.
As always when I don't have 3 tons of work I am depressed.
I don't have many friends, and I am always so lonely.

Dear Oprah

It's been a while.
Thank God it's because I have so much work that I don't have time to do anything else.
Even sleep.
It doesn't mean that I am less depressed. I'm just busier.
It scares me the world we live in.
People are so selfish, so egoist and hypocritical.
Why in order to succeed people need to put down those around them?
Why is it so difficult to say "No, I am not going to help you because I don't want to" instead of pretending they are helping but the truth is they are throwing you to the wolves?
Life is a giant mystery to me.
Sometimes I feel that I am not prepared to live in this world. I don't have what's required.
And it's funny because I'm 58 years old.
I hope that you are enjoying summer and some vacations.
Love you

Dear Oprah

Work disappeared again!
So, lots of time to think, what in my case is always a bad thing.
The weather is awful. For us in Brazil it's considered cold.
I have no money, nowhere to go so I watch some movies, read a lot and try not to dive into depression.
I wish I were in Maui.

Dear Oprah

Why has life to be so hard?
Why have we  to suffer this much?
All around we look all we see is people suffering, being attacked.
Animals being tortured, children being abandoned or molested.
I know there are good people too.
I know there is happiness and that we need all these bad things in order to grow up, to evolve into something better, but God, it's hard.
Sometimes I just want to stay in bed and never get up again.
Sometimes I feel so tired of watching the news, looking at news websites that I think about moving to a desert island.
I pray and I pray and I pray over and over and over again but unfortunately I don't feel any relieve.
What can we do?
What else can we do?

Dear Oprah

People usually say TGIF but I prefer TGIMonday.
It was a terrible weekend where the only good thing it was having lots of work.
Every week we have the same hope: it's going to be better.
Well, I surely hope it is.
Haven't heard anything from you lately.
Probably you are at your house in Maui.
God, I wish I had a house there.
I would live there forever.

Dear Oprah

Yesterday I sent a message to my friend saying that I needed a shoulder and if she could meet for a coffee and talk a little bit.
She answered that her daughter was coming to town so it would have to be today.
I said ok and today I waited all day long for her phone call.
Of course, it didn't come.
I texted her asking if she was free and she said that she was at the mall with her daughters and grand-daughter. That she was going home but she was beaten.
That said - she really doesn't care if I am sad and I need somebody to talk to.
That's the history of my life and I just don't get why.
I am the kind of person that if you need me I'll drop everything I'm doing to offer you support.
More and more I come to think that we are all completely alone.
Even said friend.
She has her daughters and grand- daughter and a boyfriend and friends but I am sure that one day she'll feel alone.
Or maybe it's just me.
Maybe I am not a good person as I think I am.
My daughter surely thinks that I am the worst person in the whole world.
Today is my son's birthday.
He lives in Canada and as I told you I was not able to go spend today with him.
So, he bought a camera and put it in the living room and with a kind of software I could be part of his party.
I even sang Happy Birthday with the others guests.
I really miss him.
And I miss my mother.
The thing I want most in life is a lot of money so I can travel everywhere and visit my family and friends all around.

Dear Oprah

I've been working like crazy.
I'm not complaining, I swear!
Finally, there are some good episodes of American series to translate and also some of Brazilian ones to translate to English.
Unfortunately, money is still short but... It's a matter of time.
I am really sad with my daughter.
She is verbally abusive to me every time she has any problem and I am fed up to be mistreated by her.
She thinks that because she is stressed everybody around her has to cope with her mood.
I really don't know how her husband can bear it.
So, I'm not talking to her until she apologises and starts to really pay attention to the way she treats me.
It's not fair.
I'm sure I am a good mother.
I did my best to raise both of them and I am not perfect but I really gave them everything I had in me.
Sometimes I suffer because I live far from them, but... Sometimes I consider it a blessing.
God knows better, right?
Love