Dear Oprah

Eu amo meu genro.
Juro!
Mas tem horas que eu faria picadinho dele.
Se houvesse um medidor de gente sem noção ele certamente estaria entre os primeiros colocados.
Nunca imaginei que eu tendo casado com estrangeiro e sofrido na pele as dificuldades de conviver com pessoas de outra cultura, viveria isso novamente através da minha filha.
O parto da minha neta foi exatamente isso, um parto.
Não vou entrar em detalhes, mas ela foi admitida no hospital no dia 28, ficou sendo induzida por 72 horas, desistiram, mandaram para casa para descansar por 36 horas e depois começou tudo de novo para acabar em... cesariana.
Se tivessem me perguntado eu já saberia dizer que seria ncessário cesárea nas primeira 72 horas porque minha filha é minha cópia e foi o que aconteceu comigo.
Enfim...
Voltam para casa e começam minhas dores de cabeça com problemas como:
- Eles têm cachorro, até aí tudo bem, mas meu genro deixa o cachorro lamber a Viviane (minha neta)
- Os pais dele vem visitar e trazem a cachorrinha, uma pomerian mini. A mãe dele, primeiro não lava a mão para pegar na bebê, depois pega a bebê de um lado e a cachorra de outro e terceiro a cachorra entra no bebê conforto.
Quase surtei.
- Na maternidade as enfermeiras dizeram que não precisa de banho todo dia, então meu genro surta quando eu digo que banho todo dia relaxa a criança. Não precisa usar sabão todo dia, mas a água morna ajuda a dormir melhor.
Ontem a noite, minha filha cansada de brigar todo dia por isso não deu banho e foi a pior noite que tiveram desde que voltaram para casa.
- Hoje a mãe dele veio com uma amiga e eu fui rápida no gatilho - todo mundo lavando a mão já.
Ele olhou feio, nem ligo.
- Visita ao pediatra é outro assunto complicado - na primeira semana tiveram que ir várias vezes porque a Vivi estava com icterícia.
Aí foram na terça-feira dia 17 e a médica falou que ela estava ótima e marcou para 17 de setembro!!!!
Como assim não vai ter consulta todo mês?
Eu tenho vontade de urrar!
A Vivi está com cólicas.
Minha afilhada teve bebê em Maio e falou para a Marie dar Colic Calm que é um remédio homeopático que tem centenas de comentários elegiando na internet.
Meu genro fica - "Mas a médica não mandou."
É... cansativo.
Eu estou cheia de tentar ensinar as coisas e ele achar que eu exagero.
Tive dois filhos, estão aí, vivos, crescidos, saudáveis.
Acho que sei mais ou menos como cuidar de um bebê.
Posso não ser a mais esperta do mundo, mas tenho noções de higiene e de bom senso.

Dear Oprah

Hoje vou escrever em português porque já que você nunca vai ler e provavelmetne ninguém mais, eu pelo menos desabafo no meu próprio idioma.
Se eu que não sou famosa, não sou ninguém importante fico de saco cheio de gente sem noção que gruda em mim por achar que eu posso oferecer algo, imagino você.
Gente sem noção, gente que está falando mais que a boca e acaba falando merda e não percebe.
Gente sem medida.
Minha paciência para seres humanos está cada vez menor.

Dear Oprah

I was watching your Sunday Soul and you were talking with a woman, I've never heard about her, who lost her husband from a heart attack and apparently she wrote a book about her experience.
Well, I lost my husband from a heart attack 21 years ago I can't say for sure if I will ever recover from that experience.
I was 38 years old. He was my best friend. He was the love of my life.
My son was 9 and my daughter was 7 and God, it was so so hard to raise them alone.
Now, as I've already told you, my children live in North America. My son in Canada and my daughter in the USA.
My daughter is pregnant and it's something wonderful and terrifying at the same time because I can't move to the USA and how am I suppose to live far from my grandchild?
I cant live in the USA with $1,500/month. How am I going to pay for Health Insurance?
What kind of job can I get being 60 years old?
My job as a translator allows me to have a good life here in Brazil where I don't pay rent because my mom left me this appartment (or half of it as my brother is entitled to the other half) and considering that I don't spend much I can live a well.
But if I move to the USA I'll need to earn more.
I don't want to live with my daughter. My son-in-law is an angel but it would be too hard for him and also I've been completely alone for 2 years now and I do love living my life by myself.
I love the freedom to go to bed anytime I want and waking up late or early.
I love being able to eat when I want, to go out without having to explain where I'm going or when I'm coming back.
So I think I'll have to live far from my grandchild and spend all my money on airplane tickets.
And I thank God for my health, for being able to work a lot to buy those tickets.
Anyway, I'm sure that God will find a way to always help me.
I used to be so anxious but now I've learned to put my life in God's hands and trust.
Love you Oprah.
Gisela

Dear Oprah

I know I abandoned my blog.
I went to the USA and after that to Canada to visit my son.
It was good visiting them but I was also so weird.
My son erected a wall around him and it is as only his wife can get into his heart.
I feel really sorry for him but there's nothing I can do.
And then I came back home and I had a huge problem with one of the agencies I work for and, well, things are a little difficult on the money side.
As always when I don't have 3 tons of work I am depressed.
I don't have many friends, and I am always so lonely.

Dear Oprah

It's been a while.
Thank God it's because I have so much work that I don't have time to do anything else.
Even sleep.
It doesn't mean that I am less depressed. I'm just busier.
It scares me the world we live in.
People are so selfish, so egoist and hypocritical.
Why in order to succeed people need to put down those around them?
Why is it so difficult to say "No, I am not going to help you because I don't want to" instead of pretending they are helping but the truth is they are throwing you to the wolves?
Life is a giant mystery to me.
Sometimes I feel that I am not prepared to live in this world. I don't have what's required.
And it's funny because I'm 58 years old.
I hope that you are enjoying summer and some vacations.
Love you

Dear Oprah

Work disappeared again!
So, lots of time to think, what in my case is always a bad thing.
The weather is awful. For us in Brazil it's considered cold.
I have no money, nowhere to go so I watch some movies, read a lot and try not to dive into depression.
I wish I were in Maui.

Dear Oprah

Why has life to be so hard?
Why have we  to suffer this much?
All around we look all we see is people suffering, being attacked.
Animals being tortured, children being abandoned or molested.
I know there are good people too.
I know there is happiness and that we need all these bad things in order to grow up, to evolve into something better, but God, it's hard.
Sometimes I just want to stay in bed and never get up again.
Sometimes I feel so tired of watching the news, looking at news websites that I think about moving to a desert island.
I pray and I pray and I pray over and over and over again but unfortunately I don't feel any relieve.
What can we do?
What else can we do?